90 Day Challenge

I'm back! I will keep on coming back until I get this right, never giving up. Aries are very stubborn people, gotta live up to that! Last time on my 40 day challenge, I reached day 32 (even though I didn't blog, naughty!) and I had some events occur that made me question my existence (very depressing thoughts..blah) and I kept slipping until falling off completely. So..

This new challenge of mine will not be revealed until I survive it for at least 10 days haha

It starts on Tuesday, February 23

If I don't "survive" it, I'll just come up with another plan. And so and so. :)

It has to CLICK in me completely one day..right?

Goal: HAPPINESS

Day 14

So I guess I'll be updating every week ;) haha
I'm doing great! Had some cravings a couple of days ago but it passed as soon as I consumed my banana fix! That kills all my hunger and more importantly my cravings. And just about anything for the next half hour hahahha I haven't been exercising much.. on weekends I go to clubs and dance the fat away haha and during the week I run/walk about couple days a week. I also do some weight training 2-4x a week. Not too bad but since it's my transition it's really good. I lost 7 pounds so far :) so I'm doing this the right way! I definitely do not undereat and the fat is melting off me! yay!

Everyday I eat about the same things: around 20 bananas (10 for breakfast, 10 for lunch) for breakfast I have it in a green smoothie form and then for lunch I try to eat it (it takes me 3 hours! people at work don't know what to make out of me anymore hahhaha) and with that I'll usually have some fruit (8 clementines or 3 apples or some honeydew melon), for dinner I'll have fresh squeezed oj of 8 oranges (medium sized) and 3 tomatoes, half a cuke, half a spiralized zucchini. All in all-- I eat well!! I have some days with fats (truely raw almonds, couple of handfuls) but that only occurs about twice a week! I eat around 2,000 cal. a day, some days less, I don't think I ever passed the 2,000 mark though. Maybe if exercised more. Annnyyywaaay..awesome! :) I feel happy soooooo happy every morning that I wake up. I'm in such a good, bubbly mood throughout the day, my skin is almost poreless! (it's not flawless since I have some acne scars). Let's finish this on this good note, and keep going!

Day 7

No nonon NOOO no nooo I can't reach 2,000 cal!!! ever .. haha
Today I drove to pick up my second case of bananas and oranges and was pleasantly surprised that it was all ready for me! Half green half ripe! I wanted to hug everyone there :)) I even forgot about my reckless driving on the way to the store (detours, etc.). The guy who works there helped me put it in the trunk and I was thinking "crap, my trunk is trashed!" hahah he asked what I do with all the bananas. Typical. I answered "eat it!" . Needless to say, it was plenty of fun! I got tons of ripe fruit in the house and I'm very happy! I've been doing very well, excepting with the blogging part. And the calorie part! I know I have to eat more, but if i have to pray again before I drink my 1000g banana smoothie.......I swear to god.. :)))

I lost 4 pounds so far! 8000 more to go! hahaha

I'm happy so far, no depressing thoughts, YAY

I exercise! I did 25 min on treadmill jog/walk/incline
weights

Calories: 1,998 (grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr)
91/04/06

Basically what I ate was two banana smoothies (approx. 2000g both) one with spinach(120g)
a few strawberries, orange juice (370 g), 3 tomatoes, 1/4 yellow red pepper, 1 cup of cabbage

Day 2

Easy, easy, easy!! :)))
Why didn't anyone tell me that the secret to succeed on this "diet" is to not be afraid of eating! :)) hahha great day again. Much lower in calories today since I didn't realize that the honeydew melon I had for lunch was about 200 cal! I thought it was at least 400..hmm oh well.. And plus, I have unripe bananas in the house so I didn't eat two meals of bananas.

Calories: 1,636
90/06/04

Breakfast: 789g bananas, 100g spinach (smoothie) kept me satisfied 'til 1:00 P.M.!! ;)

Lunch: 780g honeydew melon, 9 clementines

Dinner: 2 cups of fresh oj, salad of 3 tomatoes, half a cuke, spiralized half of a zucchini

Feel amazing again!! I like eating this clean :) not too many things eaten at once make my body very content!

No exercise...worked 10 hours! :)

Day 1

I made it!!! It was unbelievably easy..you know why?? Because I ate enough. That's the secret. As I was drinking 2 of my smoothies (consisting of total of 15 bananas) I was silently praying "please don't show up somewhere uninvited on my body soon". I felt so light, energetic, happy today..UNBELIEVABLE!!! I haven't felt this way for like a year :) That's how I'm thanking my body today for not giving up on me :) HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

Calories for today:
1925 - Could have been better but..good enough!
90/06/04
Menu:
Breakfast- 725g bananas, 100g spinach, 295g clementines (about 6)
Lunch- 789g bananas, 100g spinach
Dinner- 395g fresh squeezed oj, green soup (cuke, tomatoes(3), spinach 120g, honey 2 tsp, yellow bell pepper (1/4) --satisfied me completely..all of my meals!

For some reason I tolerate these bananas so much better! I wasn't bloated or in pain AT ALL

Exercise:
40 min. walk
weights (squats, arm curls, push ups)
15 min run/walk on incline (treadmill)

Feeling: AMAZING& happy. That's all I need :)

A little bitsy update :)

I think it is officially time for me to update! How dare I wait almost 8 months! There are, of course, numerous reasons for that(and of course I'm great at excuses)For the past 8 months it had been a very stressful time for me. My parents decided to split up (well, it was really just my mom and I that made that decision without my father's involvement). And let me just say..we had to RUN! Since he wouldn't let us leave nicely. Sneaking things out and at the end ourselves was the life I knew for the past months. There were many other things happening at the same time, as stressful, but I can't write that so publicly. Gotta keep some things to myself :P But finally I can say, without a doubt, it was the best decision we ever made. Before I couldn't imagine wanting to be at home or not being scared listening to loud fights. Now I can't wait to go home and I cherish the calmness that has spread over me without much interruption.

I'm happy, but there's one thing that won't allow me to be 100% happy --not being completely raw. So guess what?

I decided to do 40 days of high fruit, low fat. Again. YAY! This time I would like to give it a fair try. I bought a 40 lbs case of bananas (just like a true 811-er!) and a case of orangessss and I made a menu for everyday :))) ANND I bought an awesome citrus juicer! I'm "like" SERIOUS about it this time. I'm aiming for at least 2,000 calories everyday (about 15 bananas a day and other fruit). And greens 'til I .. you know what :))) hahah

That day is...................

....................Tomorrow!

Thanksgiving Day :) to show how thankful I am for life and my body that is so smart (not going to mention my brain--not as smart :P )

So we'll see -- after 40 days I can fairly determine if this is something for me. If not, I'll just go back to SAD food or even worse- superfoods! buahahha

In three weeks I have a very important interview and I have got to show my true side. I know being raw will enable me to be myself (the self that I like) and get the job!!! :)) OK, let's do my best tomorrow and for the rest of the days!!

I'm 21!!

So I turned 21 two days ago! And I ask myself, "What is the point anymore??". I don't drink anymore, well I never really drank hardcore like some of my party companions. I honestly didn't need to, whenever I'm among people it gets me drunk. I get super hyper and laugh too loud, all that stuff :P Still, I had my share of "mental ..blurriness". Usually people can't wait to turn 21 only for that reason. I couldn't either, but for me it was more getting into awesome dance clubs since I LOOOVEEE to dance. I can't even be happy about that either because my closest friends are under 21 and do not own a fake ID. Too bad.. :D

Anyway, it got me thinking "what's the point?" yesterday. Why yesterday? Because that was one day after my birthday and every other person at my work gave me all those knowing glances. Like: "Oh I have an idea of what she did last night". Little smiles, winks, high-fives..it was such a let down when I said "I didn't drink last night". They just nodded their heads smiled again, probably thinking "yeah, right.." and then I insisted. "oh yeah, aren't you the one who eats rabbit food? Makes sense now" hahhaha

I realized what the point is today. I'm older, wiser, so far ahead of most people (even older) when it comes to health. I've been mostly raw, with really bad junk stages, for over a year now. That's the point, as I get older maybe finally it will get easier. Maybe it will come naturally without binge episodes. Maybe I'll finally be able to say that nothing but fruit and greens appeal to me. Maybe I will finally finish something I started. Time will tell!

Birkam Yoga update:

I went almost daily for 3 weeks and felt amazing! Stopped because I was too weak and my knee was killing me. I found another studio 15 min away but I don't think it's a true Birkam Yoga. It's just called Hot Yoga. I'll check that out after the weekend.

Juice Fast update:

I fasted for 32 days. YAY! seven last on water only. But stupid me went straight to eating instead of juicing after water. Bad Sandy. Been eating raw, trying 811 again with tweaks. Incorporating Tonya Zavasta's teachings (she's still my goddess hahah).

I think that's it for now. I should not have started a blog..so bad at updating it :)))