Naturally F R U i T Y

90 Day Challenge

2010-02-21T20:10:00.000-08:00

I'm back! I will keep on coming back until I get this right, never giving up. Aries are very stubborn people, gotta live up to that! Last time on my 40 day challenge, I reached day 32 (even though I didn't blog, naughty!) and I had some events occur that made me question my existence (very depressing thoughts..blah) and I kept slipping until falling off completely. So..

This new challenge of mine will not be revealed until I survive it for at least 10 days haha

It starts on Tuesday, February 23

If I don't "survive" it, I'll just come up with another plan. And so and so. :)

It has to CLICK in me completely one day..right?

Goal: HAPPINESS

Day 14

2009-12-09T13:52:00.000-08:00

So I guess I'll be updating every week ;) haha
I'm doing great! Had some cravings a couple of days ago but it passed as soon as I consumed my banana fix! That kills all my hunger and more importantly my cravings. And just about anything for the next half hour hahahha I haven't been exercising much.. on weekends I go to clubs and dance the fat away haha and during the week I run/walk about couple days a week. I also do some weight training 2-4x a week. Not too bad but since it's my transition it's really good. I lost 7 pounds so far :) so I'm doing this the right way! I definitely do not undereat and the fat is melting off me! yay!

Everyday I eat about the same things: around 20 bananas (10 for breakfast, 10 for lunch) for breakfast I have it in a green smoothie form and then for lunch I try to eat it (it takes me 3 hours! people at work don't know what to make out of me anymore hahhaha) and with that I'll usually have some fruit (8 clementines or 3 apples or some honeydew melon), for dinner I'll have fresh squeezed oj of 8 oranges (medium sized) and 3 tomatoes, half a cuke, half a spiralized zucchini. All in all-- I eat well!! I have some days with fats (truely raw almonds, couple of handfuls) but that only occurs about twice a week! I eat around 2,000 cal. a day, some days less, I don't think I ever passed the 2,000 mark though. Maybe if exercised more. Annnyyywaaay..awesome! :) I feel happy soooooo happy every morning that I wake up. I'm in such a good, bubbly mood throughout the day, my skin is almost poreless! (it's not flawless since I have some acne scars). Let's finish this on this good note, and keep going!

Day 7

2009-12-02T15:40:00.000-08:00

No nonon NOOO no nooo I can't reach 2,000 cal!!! ever .. haha
Today I drove to pick up my second case of bananas and oranges and was pleasantly surprised that it was all ready for me! Half green half ripe! I wanted to hug everyone there :)) I even forgot about my reckless driving on the way to the store (detours, etc.). The guy who works there helped me put it in the trunk and I was thinking "crap, my trunk is trashed!" hahah he asked what I do with all the bananas. Typical. I answered "eat it!" . Needless to say, it was plenty of fun! I got tons of ripe fruit in the house and I'm very happy! I've been doing very well, excepting with the blogging part. And the calorie part! I know I have to eat more, but if i have to pray again before I drink my 1000g banana smoothie.......I swear to god.. :)))

I lost 4 pounds so far! 8000 more to go! hahaha

I'm happy so far, no depressing thoughts, YAY

I exercise! I did 25 min on treadmill jog/walk/incline
weights

Calories: 1,998 (grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr)
91/04/06

Basically what I ate was two banana smoothies (approx. 2000g both) one with spinach(120g)
a few strawberries, orange juice (370 g), 3 tomatoes, 1/4 yellow red pepper, 1 cup of cabbage

Day 2

2009-11-27T17:11:00.000-08:00

Easy, easy, easy!! :)))
Why didn't anyone tell me that the secret to succeed on this "diet" is to not be afraid of eating! :)) hahha great day again. Much lower in calories today since I didn't realize that the honeydew melon I had for lunch was about 200 cal! I thought it was at least 400..hmm oh well.. And plus, I have unripe bananas in the house so I didn't eat two meals of bananas.

Calories: 1,636
90/06/04

Breakfast: 789g bananas, 100g spinach (smoothie) kept me satisfied 'til 1:00 P.M.!! ;)

Lunch: 780g honeydew melon, 9 clementines

Dinner: 2 cups of fresh oj, salad of 3 tomatoes, half a cuke, spiralized half of a zucchini

Feel amazing again!! I like eating this clean :) not too many things eaten at once make my body very content!

No exercise...worked 10 hours! :)

Day 1

2009-11-26T16:44:00.000-08:00

I made it!!! It was unbelievably easy..you know why?? Because I ate enough. That's the secret. As I was drinking 2 of my smoothies (consisting of total of 15 bananas) I was silently praying "please don't show up somewhere uninvited on my body soon". I felt so light, energetic, happy today..UNBELIEVABLE!!! I haven't felt this way for like a year :) That's how I'm thanking my body today for not giving up on me :) HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

Calories for today:
1925 - Could have been better but..good enough!
90/06/04
Menu:
Breakfast- 725g bananas, 100g spinach, 295g clementines (about 6)
Lunch- 789g bananas, 100g spinach
Dinner- 395g fresh squeezed oj, green soup (cuke, tomatoes(3), spinach 120g, honey 2 tsp, yellow bell pepper (1/4) --satisfied me completely..all of my meals!

For some reason I tolerate these bananas so much better! I wasn't bloated or in pain AT ALL

Exercise:
40 min. walk
weights (squats, arm curls, push ups)
15 min run/walk on incline (treadmill)

Feeling: AMAZING& happy. That's all I need :)

A little bitsy update :)

2009-11-25T18:01:00.000-08:00

I think it is officially time for me to update! How dare I wait almost 8 months! There are, of course, numerous reasons for that(and of course I'm great at excuses)For the past 8 months it had been a very stressful time for me. My parents decided to split up (well, it was really just my mom and I that made that decision without my father's involvement). And let me just say..we had to RUN! Since he wouldn't let us leave nicely. Sneaking things out and at the end ourselves was the life I knew for the past months. There were many other things happening at the same time, as stressful, but I can't write that so publicly. Gotta keep some things to myself :P But finally I can say, without a doubt, it was the best decision we ever made. Before I couldn't imagine wanting to be at home or not being scared listening to loud fights. Now I can't wait to go home and I cherish the calmness that has spread over me without much interruption.

I'm happy, but there's one thing that won't allow me to be 100% happy --not being completely raw. So guess what?

I decided to do 40 days of high fruit, low fat. Again. YAY! This time I would like to give it a fair try. I bought a 40 lbs case of bananas (just like a true 811-er!) and a case of orangessss and I made a menu for everyday :))) ANND I bought an awesome citrus juicer! I'm "like" SERIOUS about it this time. I'm aiming for at least 2,000 calories everyday (about 15 bananas a day and other fruit). And greens 'til I .. you know what :))) hahah

That day is...................

....................Tomorrow!

Thanksgiving Day :) to show how thankful I am for life and my body that is so smart (not going to mention my brain--not as smart :P )

So we'll see -- after 40 days I can fairly determine if this is something for me. If not, I'll just go back to SAD food or even worse- superfoods! buahahha

In three weeks I have a very important interview and I have got to show my true side. I know being raw will enable me to be myself (the self that I like) and get the job!!! :)) OK, let's do my best tomorrow and for the rest of the days!!

I'm 21!!

2009-04-02T14:53:00.000-07:00

So I turned 21 two days ago! And I ask myself, "What is the point anymore??". I don't drink anymore, well I never really drank hardcore like some of my party companions. I honestly didn't need to, whenever I'm among people it gets me drunk. I get super hyper and laugh too loud, all that stuff :P Still, I had my share of "mental ..blurriness". Usually people can't wait to turn 21 only for that reason. I couldn't either, but for me it was more getting into awesome dance clubs since I LOOOVEEE to dance. I can't even be happy about that either because my closest friends are under 21 and do not own a fake ID. Too bad.. :D

Anyway, it got me thinking "what's the point?" yesterday. Why yesterday? Because that was one day after my birthday and every other person at my work gave me all those knowing glances. Like: "Oh I have an idea of what she did last night". Little smiles, winks, high-fives..it was such a let down when I said "I didn't drink last night". They just nodded their heads smiled again, probably thinking "yeah, right.." and then I insisted. "oh yeah, aren't you the one who eats rabbit food? Makes sense now" hahhaha

I realized what the point is today. I'm older, wiser, so far ahead of most people (even older) when it comes to health. I've been mostly raw, with really bad junk stages, for over a year now. That's the point, as I get older maybe finally it will get easier. Maybe it will come naturally without binge episodes. Maybe I'll finally be able to say that nothing but fruit and greens appeal to me. Maybe I will finally finish something I started. Time will tell!

Birkam Yoga update:

I went almost daily for 3 weeks and felt amazing! Stopped because I was too weak and my knee was killing me. I found another studio 15 min away but I don't think it's a true Birkam Yoga. It's just called Hot Yoga. I'll check that out after the weekend.

Juice Fast update:

I fasted for 32 days. YAY! seven last on water only. But stupid me went straight to eating instead of juicing after water. Bad Sandy. Been eating raw, trying 811 again with tweaks. Incorporating Tonya Zavasta's teachings (she's still my goddess hahah).

I think that's it for now. I should not have started a blog..so bad at updating it :)))

Day 5 Of BY

2009-03-05T20:04:00.000-08:00

Today was the fifth day I've done Bikram Yoga! In a row!! It's truly addicting.. On monday I went to a 8:15 P.M. class and on tuesday I had it at 6:00 A.M. It was pretty intense, I must say. Yesterday's class was most enjoyable for me for some reason. The more I go, the more I like it. Well, I liked today's class a little less only because I got a little injured :P For some reason my lower back aches like crazy. I probably pushed myself wayyy too hard. I'll calm down a bit next time. That's what happens when you get a little too excited about things :P

Tomorrow will be the first day I'll skip BY. Reason? There's no way I can do yoga on Fridays because of my schedule. I work allllll day and the last class of the day is at 6:00. Unless I teletransport myself, it's impossible. :( I'm really sad and jealous of my bff, because she gets to go tomorrow. Haha. Ok, enough of whining.

I had the most incredible juice this morning! 2 apples and 2 pears..I had to keep myself from floating..seriously.. it was that good. I say, simplicity is best! I'm on day 10 btw. Which is amazing for me :) I weighted myself out of curiosity (I wasn't going to..but you know how that goes) and I'm no longer in the 140's! yay! I better not, I mean I have to look at my(whole)self in the mirror for 90 minutes a day, I better look good enough to concentrate on the poses rather than my bulges. Allllready. I think I'm finished for tonight. My next BY is on Saturday! Hopefully my back will feel better!

BTW I went to see Shopoholic (I read all the books) and it was a cute movie :) I love Isla Fisher, she's so cute. But who's cuter was the guy playing Luke Brandon..mmmmmmm ;) I would much rather look at him doing my yoga than myself :D hahaha

Day 1 of Bikram Yoga

2009-03-01T15:31:00.000-08:00

I.AM.IN.LOVE.
Today was the very first day I've done Bikram Yoga (or any type of yoga. Well, I'm not counting doing Kundulini Yoga from a DVD for a couple of weeks). I don't even know what to say, it was love at first BREATH!

I drove over to pick up my bff 2 hours prior to the class so I wouldn't be worried about getting lost and being late. The studio is approx. 30 miles away (took us 50 minutes). After the exhausting trip (just kidding :) ) we arrived in Naperville. We fell in love with the little town! It was cuuutee! We parked outside a Walgreens and walked upstairs(that's where is was located, upstairs of Walgreens haha). There was a sign posted that read along the lines of "don't park where you parked because you'll be towed. Go S or E of the lobby and you'll find a free parking lot that is only free after 5 and weekends". Yea, so we RAN to my car and searched for the secret place.

After we parked, we walked for about 4 minutes and found ourselves being 45 min. early. That's good becuase we had to fill some forms out and change. There was about 30 people in class and we got to lay our mat in the back. The room felt cozy (maybe becuase I love warmnessss) and we were ready for take-off!!

Throughout the class, I only had to sit down once for about a minute. The funny thing was, the moment I felt dizzy, I looked at my bff and she looked at me and we both sat down at the same time!! It was hilarious!! Later on we agreed that we saw the famous Bikram stars :P After that it was awesome! After the half time our instructor was like "ok guys now the real workout, we only had the warm up!" I was like whaaaaaa???? hahahhaa But it was a good "whaaa". No worries. I endured!

After the class I couldn't stop smiling and saying "ommmgg I loveee thisss cllassss..I looooveee Bikrrrammm". Haha. So, needless to say-- I shall be back. Tomorrow, after work I will be driving an hour (after a ten hr shift) for an 8:00 P.M. class. That's how much I love it. My bff can't make it though :( So I'll be a bit lonely. On tuesday we have to be there by 6:00 A.M.!! Good thing I love it. :) So that's it for now! I will be going everyday (except Fridays) for the next 8 days and then I'll decide if it's for me (hahah) and do the 3 month contract (it's cheaper then the monthly unlimited).

OMGGGoshhh I almost forgot to mention, I am on day 6 of my juice fast! It's going sooo smoothly..for the first time ever! :) I want to keep going past my birthday, which will be in 30 days! So about 40. Or more if I dare!! Fasting+Bikram Yoga= ???? Hopefully amazing physical, emotional and spiritual results!! Seee ya! I will be reporting more often now to track my progress.

Plans

2009-02-20T17:45:00.000-08:00

I'm so baaad at blogging!! hahahha

So, my original plan with Bikram Yoga was to start February 28, but then I changed my mind for tomorrow and then I changed my mind again for my original date..I'm such a flake. All I'm thinking is that once I start going, I'll be going almost everyday, and twice a week I would have to leave my house at 4:30. The problem is, it's still freeeezing..so I would have to warm my car up, etc..I guess I'll just leave it at my original date. Unless I change my mind again :P:P

I've been juicing a lot lately! Weeeeirddd, since I absolutely DREAD cleaning the juicer. Whenever I can, I just put the messy parts in a bowl of water and hope someone at the house will be doing the dishes hihi I'm so evil! Yup..I really hate it that much. Whenever I juice, my mom just shakes her head in disapproval. hahah. And what do I do? "thank you mooommmy!". I'm thinking of starting a juice fast. I don't know when but I'm thinking around March 1st. That would give me about 30 days before my birthday. We'll see. Not promising anything :P as always.

In about four months I'm flying to Poland!! Yay! I don't know if I mentioned it, but I already got the tickets so this time it will happen (I thought it was going to happen last year, but it didn't. But then again, I didn't have the tickets!!) Soooo I got four months to look good for it :P I don't want my family to be stereotyping based on me living in America. :D It's been 5 years since I last visited and ten since I moved here. I'm flying there with my mom and little sister, she was not even a year old when we moved here! I'm so excited to show her where we used to live, go to school, etc. Ok, I'm keeping this post semi short :PP

Extreme Makeover: Room Edition

2009-02-01T13:35:00.001-08:00

It's that day of the month!! I am certainly NOT reffering to the delicate subject of women and their monthly visitations. If I ever do touch on that subject, it will be: oh I ate like pig (that time of the month), oh I gained 13 pounds (that day of the month), am I pregnant?(nah that time of the month) wait, that last sentence doesn't make sense..if I was pregnant I wouldn't be getting my period.. Wow. Hey, it's a Sunday. So let's not get too excited :) What I'm talking about is my motivation to finally clean my..pigsty. hahhah but let's start from the beginning, as always there's a story that goes with it.

So I think I've already touched on the subject about my obsessiveness. Most of the time I call it "passion". It's an admirable trait, so why not? Obsession reminds me of stalking, or some sort of addiction. Passion reminds me of love and devotion and .. all the nice things. But in this post -- LET's GET REALLLL. I'm all or nothing kind of girl, there is no in between, there's no balance. There's certainly no "moderation" (don't you just HATE it when all those nutritionists tell you that you can eat everything, just in moderation? ughhh who'll do that?).

My obsession begins with food and ends with everything else. Recently I found something that I'm really "passionate" about. I started learning French (there's a reason but I'll talk about that in a different post). I was waiting for my friend to install Rosetta Stone for me but knowing him I knew I had to jumpstart on my own. (Procrastination is not only my problem ;P). So I got this different program from the internet. I love it!! It shows you this bizzare picture of something that associates the pronounciation of the French word, and that's how you remember it.

So I studied my French for 2 weeks straight for 2-3 hours everyday. I kept repeating everything I learned throughout the day (people at work thought I had some throat troubles, or a hairball stuck in my esophagus), I was thinking about the pictures, I was dreaming about the words..it was insane!! I went on French websites and called my mom every 2 seconds to show her how I can translate a sentence! Usually it was a sentence with similar to English words. But hey, I made my mama proud and that's all that matters :P I even checked out a book in French with audiocasettes. Yup, typical me. Now, let's look at my life a month after I discovered French:

Cricket..Cricket..

For the past 2 weeks I haven't even thought about the French language. 0%. Pss more like (-)85%. Why is my brain so weird??? hahah

Same with books. I'll be reading at least 2 books a week (I'm talking those fattie ones, over 300 :P ) and then I'll stop for a month. No moderation there huuuh?

Or with men. I'll be so "in love" with a man and think obsessively about him (thank goodness I don't ACT obsessively with men) to one day wake up and notice a crooked tooth that I'm not too fond of. (I'm not a shallow person, it's just when you don't like someone anymore your flaw blocker is gooone and it ain't coming back!)

Going back to my original subject, which will usually be the moniority of the post :P my intention! I swear! haha So my room..every month or so I get the biggest urge to get rid of stuff from all over my room. (dirty dishes, papers, clothes, etc..). After I clean up (it usually takes about 2 hours, depending how hardcore I feel at the moment) it stays clean for another month or so. At that time I will not throw anything on the floor nor let anyone into my room with those intentions. Those artsy pictures that my little sister draws for me shall be returned during that time. Now she knows when to draw for me, she smiles when she sees my dirty room.

And then one day it happens. That sock thrown on the chair, that glass of water sitting for more than an hour..the thing is I'm AWARE of that. I know that sock represents the beginning of the "dirrrty cycle" as I call it. And I will not pick it up. Nothing will force me to pick that sock up and extend my "heaven cycle". So making this short and sweet (ha!) I cleaned my room and it's nice. :) This month I shall be getting ready for my Bikram Yoga next month and it's easier to start new things with a clean room. That's what I always say. soooo.. go clean! hahah It will make you feel better and burn some calories (once again, depending upon how hardcore you are). I burn at least a thousand an hour. :P

Funny thing is I always think my clean room is not enough. I always promise myself I'll throw more things away becuase it still feels cluttered. Even though it really isn't. I just like minimum things in it. I'm eyeing that bookshelf and wondering what can I throw out? The top shelf consists of raw food books (non-garbagable), second shelf perfumes and make-up (hmm maybe one day), third workout DVD's(I'll decide in March), fourth encyclopedias in Polish..I think I know my next step. Alright, I'm done!

Long Time No Seeee

2009-01-27T20:20:00.000-08:00

Wow! It feels like only yesterday I failed to complete my juice feasting :PPP it's been 4 months!!! So many things have changed (including my body, additional rolls) hahah oh well..So let's do a little update here: after I stopped blogging my complusive decision making feasts, fasts etc..I decided that enough is enough. I was tired of aiming high and failing each time. So, I started from the beginning. SAAADDD big time. I'm saying day and night, folks. hahha. I decided that I'll eat whatever I want for whatever time it takes to heal my feeling of deprivation. And I did, oh how I took advantage of that wonderful time! I gained about 20 pounds :PPP but I seriously don't regret it. It finally healed me.

After ravenous binging for about 3 months my body and my mind decided that's enough. In November I was eating more raw than October, in December I was eating more raw than November and finally in January I've been eating mainly raw. I didn't realize that until I started losing weight. So my highest point was I think over 150 (that's right!! I can't believe I admitted to that!!). So recently I stepped on the scale and it showed a ten pound loss. aaaaaaa! I couldn't believe it. So of course I started eating more (mental thing, I dunno) and gained 3 pounds. So now I'm at about 143 (that's how much I weight in that pic with Dr. G.) Aaaaanyway..

I decided that I would like to start posting again. No challenges or anything just yet. Still getting used to eating mainly raw. I would like to keep track of what I eat and how much I weigh. Recently I haven't been eating past noon (Tonya Zavasta's "thing"), and it feels amazing. I will not be following 80/10/10 anymore for one reason: I can't eat that many calories. My body thrives on less. I eat a huge green smoothie (only 2 bananas though) and frozen fruit with spinach and a couple apples for breakfast. Then I wait for hunger. I no longer just eat to eat. I wait for the signal :P It's really difficult at first since you get the signal confused with you own head messing with you! It's so evil at times, especially during your period. "Ohh Saaaandyyy..you know you want that (insert the most amazing looking/tasting high calorie snack)" "oh look at that brownie..it has your name written all over it.." hah! Gotta fight those urges.

Moving on. By the way, when I do eat sad I'm vegan. So. It's all good.

Another update: I'm starting Bikram Yoga on March 1st!!!!!(or Feb. 28) I've been reading about it a lot and decided it's something I'd love to do. (and Tonya does it. I totally try to do everything she does now. I mean look at her! hahah) So I'm going to be blogging about that too!

What else...hmm.. I think that's all for now. Oh I haven't been excercising at all lately; freezing weather, laziness. I'm cancelling my gym membership since I'll be joining a hot yoga place. It's triple the price I pay now for xport so I better go at least 4X a week. I BETTER. I'm going to have to drive for an hour though! Oh well.

My birthday is on March 31 so I would like to lose about 15-20 pounds for it. And then I'll be travelling lotz during summer so I would like to be at my ideal weight of 108-110 for it. That's about 35 pounds. Is it possible to lose that much eating raw, doing yoga, and possibly fasting (in the faaaar future) in 5 months?? I hope so!! I have to be losing 7 pounds a month, less than 2 pounds per week. I think it's doable :) Ok..

Well..I think I'll be posting more starting February. So starting Feb 1 I'll be recording what I eat and how much I weigh to see my progress for the next 5 months. If I continue blogging..sometimes people just disappear for several months (years? forever?). It happened once, might happen again :P I'm oh so unpredictable! let's call it spontanous. :D alright I'm sleepy, night!

HAPPY HAPPYYYYY

2008-09-16T15:09:00.001-07:00

I just wanted to share my happiness!!!!!!!!!!!! Yes, this is Dr. Doug Graham at the Raw Spirit Festival!!! He really is amazing and stole the show (according to me). They made him almost the last presentation because he is against selling superfoods and all that stuff hahah and the Fest was almost all about selling superfoods and all that. I got to listen to him during his presentation and in a little group of people. I admire him even more. Those days were the most amazing days of my life..I cried so much when I returned home. Next year it will be in May in Santa Barbara, Cali..guess whos going? me!!!

Day 8

2008-07-08T19:10:00.000-07:00

And my last day. I know, I didn't expect it either..Unfortunetly things came up and I have to deal with them now. I'm going to take a break from blogging for a while as well. I am very saddened but I feel like I have to do this. I think I always tried everything to fast and that was my problem. I need to start from scratch, and when I am ready I'll start blogging again, and fully explain why I had to do this. Hopefully it will still be this year! :P I can honestly say I tried everything haha but never stuck with anything. Maybe I'll come back with good news and something will finally click with me? hmm (pleaseplease). I have few ideas in mind but I will try them without blogging..blogging just makes me feel too guilty if I fail (and I fail constantly hahha).

Anyway, good luck to me! I'll still be reading and commenting everyone elses' blogs! I really enjoy them and they inspire me greatly(for like a few minutes :P ) but until I find myself..this is the last post.

Thank you Kyle and double Sarahs for support throughout my adventure(s) :)

Day 7

2008-07-07T19:10:00.000-07:00

I'll make this post really really short! Got things to do and it's already late..grr ok well I had no time to do anything (ahem..excercise) since I worked from 6 30 till 4. It was dreadful and busy and and..haha I had green juices today and tonz of other juices made the previous night. today I had to make the juices at night as well. I just finished 3 mason jars right now. I'll make my lunch fresh tomorrow. ok I'm done for today!

JUICE:
-28 oz Green Juice
-20 oz Coco water
-28 oz carrot/watermelon/grapefruit
-28 oz honeydew
-28 Green juice

And that's it. Once again, too many fruit juices and not enough movement. When will I learn?? haha

Day 6

2008-07-06T19:34:00.000-07:00

I didn't like today. Period. Hahaah felt a little sluggish and lazy and drank too many fruit juices. I gotta remember the more fruit juices I drink, the more I gotta excercise to burn the sugar off. I had no green juice today which SUCKS :) For the next week I have to go to work at 6 30 so I have to make the juice at night..oh well.

I decided to do some more high intensity workouts. I got a fitness magazine( I want muscles!!!!) and it really opened up my eyes. And my inner fitness goddess. Yes I used to be big on excercise back in the day. I would do pilates every day for an hour and run for 30 minutes AND walk for an hour. I had so much energy (but I was SAD). And I ate a lot..of GRANOLA BARS!! HAHHA

So appearently my walks don't do much to me..I kinda knew that but that's the only time I get to talk to my best friend and we always have tons to say (she's a raw foodist as well, I converted her hahah) so I don't want to say a sentence in like 10 breaths hahhha but starting tomorrow I have a fitness plan. My bff just broke up with her guy of 2 years and she needs any extra endorphins that will come her way. I'll talk about it tomorrow in more detail.

I can't wait to look like the girl on the picture :) I'm not rushing or anything but..I so want to feel good about myself.

I took my little sister to se Wall-e and let me just say it was the best animated movie since Shrek! And I Loooove Shrek for those of you who don't know :) It is so about keeping out planet green and what's going to happen if we don't. All SAD fooders should see it haha

ok now the facts:

JUICE:

-Same as yesterday

WORKOUT:

-n/a

CHANGES:

-naahh

Alright til tomorrow!

Day 5

2008-07-05T18:34:00.000-07:00

Wellll..everything is going according to plan :) so far. Maybe not exactly since I planned to have green juice and didn't! I think it's time to buy a new alarm clock. Seriously. I woke up too late so I skipped jucing altogether (yup, the easy way out). When I got home from work I blended tons of watermelon and honeydew melon, strained it, and drank that all day. De-lish! But felt kind of imbalanced and perhaps a bit bloaty. Too much fruit juice at once! I think my body hates sugar, it thrives on greens :)

As I promised, I took day 5 pictures. Still nasty but I can see some improvement, especially in my tummy area. My arms haven't budged, nor did my love handles-- those two parts I have always struggled with. My work pants got very loose (of course my chicken legs had to be the first to go!!). My face got a little slimmer and my collarbone area is more visible. The rest looks identical (I think). The first pics were taken with a different camera so they look kind of blurry. hmm.. Anyway here's the facts:

JUICE:

-Honeydew melon (about 48 oz)

-Watermelon (about 48 oz)

WORKOUT:
-2 Hour walk

-30 min pilates

NO CHANGES (physical or emotional)

except for those annoying little pimples.. :(

Ok now the good stuff (aaaaaaaaa)

I removed the pics :) sooorrryyy

Day 4

2008-07-04T18:29:00.001-07:00

Guess what? I'm on day 4!! ANd still going strong! Right now I feel like I can juice for the eternity! Oh I wish I could.. I would never worry about gaining weight or breaking out (aside from ..stupid (!) detox)or emotional eating..sigh.. oh well I am going to enjoy this for however long I choose (I almost wrote the number hahahha there would go my mystery out the window). Everyone kept noticing how happy I was today. I haven't noticed that much til they mentioned it. Jucing makes you so calm and content. Why was food invented if not eating makes you feel better?? ok, ok no more questioning God.

Today was the most amazing day ever. It was sunny and I had a day off so I basically walked in the park all day and tanned with my mommy on my backyard. I love days like that. I also have so much energy ! Who wants some? hmm?

Well I will be going out soon to see the fireworks so I'll wrap it up now :)

JUICE:
-28 oz Green Juice (chard=nasty=no more)
-28 oz Orange/carrot
-28 oz honeydew melon
-28 oz Green Juice (EEEEk)

WORKOUT:
- LIiiike a 3 hour walk or more

EMOTIONS:
-Happy, looking forward to future and start being social again (I kinda stopped when the whole break out thing occurred)

PHYSICAL CHANGES:
-I think I lost a lot of water weight (don't weigh myself unless I consider it's safe haha)
-My nails have never been this long in my LIFE without already breaking
-Skin looked so amazing this morning (the pimple still there..)fdjhfjfhdu

Tomorrow I'll post pictures from day 1 and day 5. Please don't laugh. If you do, don't tell me! hahha

Happy 4th of July!

Day 3

2008-07-03T19:26:00.000-07:00

Yay! I made it throught the most difficult day (supposedly)! Not for me..If I get through day 13, that's when I'll call it a MIRACLE. I had a really nice and sunny day :) I didn't drink too much today becuase I forgot I didn't have any greens for today so I just skipped it :O. But no worries! I got tonz of greens(for two days) today! I'm starting to see everything in bright colors again. I can't believe that couple days back I felt so hopeless and depressed, it's unreal to me now.

JUICE:
-32 oz coco water
-28 oz honeydew melon

WORKOUT:
-2 hour brisk walk (I love long walks when I don't work and my best friend doesn't either)
-30 min pilates

EMOTIONS:
-Very happy
-At peace
-ENERGY

PHYSICAL CHANGES:
-Got a huge pimple!!! And it hurts! I tried zapping it with violet ray but we'll see :(
-My skin looks radiant otherwise
-Hair looks really really shiny
-All over skin really smooth
-Lost a lot of my belly (love handles ain't leaving any time soon though)

P.S. I chew a lot of gum now..I haven't since my last juice fast which was 2 or 3 months ago..haha I'm addicted to stimulation..

Day 2

2008-07-02T19:04:00.000-07:00

Just reporting in! Don't have time to write anything more! Great day though.

JUICE:
-28 oz Green Juice
-28 oz carrot/orange juice
-28 oz carrot/orange/grapefruit juice
-28 oz Green Juice

WORKOUT:
-2 hour very brisk walk

EMOTIONS:
Feeling great, feel like I lost 5 pounds already :) lots of energy.

Day 1 (fo shizzle)

2008-07-01T19:06:00.000-07:00

Finally! Day one is coming to an end :) and I made it. Today was the biggest eye-opener/motivator of my life. I took pictures and.. wow I look like a monster. No, make that a beast!(and not the sexy kind). I mean I knew I got fat but come on..is it possible that pictures add 10 pounds or is it only in case of video cameras?hmm? Anyway..I am way motivated because I know I'm taking another set of pictures in 5 days and I DON'T want to look like that anymore. Oh and I got my period too so that added another 7-9 pounds ha!

I am very happy about today, it was a good day. I've done everything that I planned and am soo exhausted as we speak. hahah. I have 3 days off of work starting tomorrow! I'll have time to make fruit juices! I didn't have any today..just greennnn. Oh at least it will clean me up from inside. ok heres the deal:

JUICE:
-28 oz Green Juice (my staple for breakfast and dinner)-rotate one kind of greens (collards,chard,kale),spinach,2 apples, 1 cucumber,celery.
-28 oz coco water (didn't have time to juice more)
-28 oz Green Juice

WORKOUT:
-90 min very brisk walk (I actually tried this time..was so pissed about my chunks hahah)
-30 min pilates

EMOTIONS:
-Felt very happy and optimistic throughout the day. Didn't get too depressed about the gained weight (surprisingly), motivated me. Have very high hopes and feel like anything is possible :)

FALSE START!!

2008-06-30T18:40:00.000-07:00

Let me explain.. I feel so guilty even though it's not my fault! ok it is but not really, just listen. So I did a very good job on my first day and was soooo happy to move on to day 2. I hate day 1's..(oh no..day 1 is tomorrow again ..I think Im gonna cry haha) SO I wake up this morning waaaay too late. I had work at 8 and woke up at 7 44..NO JOKE. I was about to throw a major tantrum (at myself) but thought, wait a second I wasn't supposed to start the feast until the 1st of July anyway! so I kind of transitioned myself into it and now it should be easier. And then I thought that I'll just come home for lunch and make some juices. Well, I only had 15 minutes of lunch today because I had to run some errands so I didn't eat anything. I still had hope that I could move on to day 3 tomorrow. Everything was going fine until after work..I was sooo hungry :( I ate a lot of fruit and left over macadamias..so what??? hhaha

Anyway tomorrow is my official day. FO SHO. I set up two alarm clocks this time :) and I don't enjoy eating anymore so that's perfect. Btw..I am so sick of dates. I shall never order a 15 pounder anymore because that killed my 811 approach. All the bingers out there!! DONT BUY 15 POUNDS OF DATES IF YOU WANT TO LIVE!! ohhh and starting wed. I have 3 days off from work in a row! More time to juice :) lalalalla Ok im not gonna "beat" myself up anymore. I am done with feeling bad about myself! it is time for ACTION! I'm pumped, can't you tell?

Ohh I am also registering my best friend and I for the raw spirit fest in Sedona AZ! I am way excited! ALready requested vac from work for those days :)

But going back to my JF.. I told myself that if I don't make it to at least day 15 of this feast I am a loser. I am serious..Come on SELF CONTROL SANDY SELF CONTROL! hahha I think that is going to work for me. Really. I did that once couple years back with my New Years Resolution..I said to myself that if I can't keep my resolution of not eating junk starting Jan. 1 than I am a loser and guess what? It worked until March ;) ahh we'll see but I have a feeling like the next days on my JF are going to be great. I haven't felt this confident about anything in a looong time :) Tomorrow is THE DAY

Day 1

2008-06-29T11:48:00.001-07:00

Well, Well, Well! Another count up for me :) I decided that I will go ahead and start my Juice Feast today since..I really want to (not to mention I really have to). I was having my mock "last suppers" for the past several days and had a lot of macadamias. That means I kind of strayed away from 811 on the last days of the challenge. The thing is, I wasn't feeling too great and I wasn't patient enough to just let it pass. I am sure after I clean myself nicely from the inside, I'll be able to tolerate fruit better.

Yesterday I kind of transitioned (had 2 quarts of juice in the morning and then ate like a pig..) The picture shows 2 quarts worth of green juice that I shall drink religiously for the next (?) days. I do have a number in mind that I would like to reach, but I will not reveal it! Why? Because it's intriguing being so mysterious and all..nah I just don't want to put a number up there and stress myself out that it's so far away. Even 15 days is just so..farrr..awaaaaaaay! So I will just keep on going and one of these days the title will be "breaking my feast" and I will reveal if that was the number I had in mind. I will not lie :)

I really need this feast..I haven't felt this bad about myself for a long time..I think I hit the rock bottom(finally). I have to make my own rules(within reason) and follow them. Listen to my body, not my emotions because emotions pass, change and collide with one another and your body is designed so perfectly that following its lead will take me to great places. :) I will never skip a day of blogging, that's my biggest goal ;) Even if it is only with one word. I'll also make my posts shorter to report on my feelings, juices and physical activity therefore I'll have time to blog every day!

GOALS:
-Feeling empty on the inside (physically).
-Lose 25 pounds (whatever looks good on my frame)
-Get an amazing raw glow
-Shinier and thicker hair
-Better skin texture (smaller pores, kill off any blemishes)
-Feeling good about myself
-More toned

JUICE:
-16 oz water, lemon and 3 tsp of MSM
-28 oz green juice (collards,spinach,cucumber,apples,celery)
-16 oz coco water
-28 oz green juice
-28 oz green juice

I am planning on drinking 28 of fruit juice as well but it kinda did not work out this way today :)

WORKOUT:
-2 hour walk (split in 2) (oh and kinda ran in the rain as well!)
-30 min pilates

EMOTIONS:
-Feeling really hopeful but really sad as well. I look in the mirror and do not recognize myself..I haven't been this fat since two winters ago (winter itself is an excuse to let yourself go!) my skin looks ok..kinda broke out couple days ago and that puts me down as well. I know there will be better days soon but I just can't help feeling this way. But you gotta go through day 1 if you want to achieve anything. Day 1 is inevitable..The only thing one can hope is that day 1 passes FAST and onto day 2. :) I will be posting pictures every 5 days and I am so wayyyy embarassed but I just gotta get over it. I really do.. The pictures I took 3 weeks ago don't look like me anymore..how sad. Anyway ..good luck me!!

Day 23

2008-06-23T19:50:00.000-07:00

Okay, I had a little breakthrough today..Not the kind that you might supspect. Well, let me start from the beginning. Once upon a time..Ok not that far in the past. Just warming up haha Anyway enough of the babble that only fills out the page without any substance. Today I felt really clogged up once again (ha, there goes my warming up). I went for a long walk in the morning (and then in the evening) and had some BM(s), but I still couldn't get rid of the uncomfortable feeling that accompanies me throughout my journey. I have been feeling like this for the past 3 weeks. Sometimes it's better and sometimes it's worse. I have even done an enema and felt better but emotionally felt like I cheated nature(ha..don't ask..weeeirdo) That was building up my breakthrough.

This evening before my walk I made a salad. Consisted of butterleaf lettuce, cherry tomatoes and 1/4 of an avocado. As I was eating, I realized that I don't want it anymore. I am soo not enjoying this simple meal that couple weeks back would give me an orgasm (literally..?). Seriously? Unfortunutely. I was talking to my mom how I don't want to eat anything because A) it just makes me feel fatter B.) I am not enjoying it C.) I'm not even hungry. Much. D.) I would much rather eat SAD. Yuuup, that's exactly what I thought and told my mom. Oh and E.) I got little tiny breakouts(flesh color) all over my face and I am freaking out about it. I am so sensitive about my acne that any changes on my face can put me in a (mental) hospital!

So I have been thinking and thinking and thinking. And..you get the point. I came up with something! Bravo, Sandy! I was thinking about dooing a 30 days of juice feast, just to unclog myself, clear up whatever that is on my face, lose some poundage and fit into my pants, help me enjoy simple eating again, give me more energy for running. I would like to clean myself for 30 days (starting July 1st) and then after that start my count-up for 811 on August 1 make my goal 120 days of 811 (my one year raw anniversary in dec.!) Does that sound like a plan or what?? Yea, I am a great planner (as I mentioned before, I absolutely love planning) It's the following through that kinda sucks for me.

I have done juice feasting and omg..I felt so amazing. I have done it for 13 days. The only pain in the buttocks was making the juice for an hour. I kinda shiver when I think about it right now. Bad sign. But I just want to be really happy..is it too much to ask for??? Happiness?? I am not even asking to be filthy rich, or supermodel like, or being a genius!! All I am asking is to be satisfied with what I am doing with myself and being proud of my accomplishments. And get rid of those little "pimples" (don't think about them, don't think about them). Gaaahh

I promised myself I wouldn't do extremes anymore (fasts to abundance blah blah) but it's a feast! right? I was reading about Kyle's Juice feasting and it gave me a little further push toward it (thank you darling!). So this is my plan. Right now I'll still be eating 811 style(it's my thang)and plus I have got to complete my 30 day challenge on goneraw! One more week and I'll do the feast. We'll see what's going to happen. So strating July 1st I'll start my count up for juice feasting. If anyone has got any advice, please share! Especially you, Kyle! I am so going to appreciate it!

P.s. Another reason why I decided to start in a week is because I still have tons of dates that I am planning on eating for this week to finish it up! yup, smart thinking!

Day 22

2008-06-22T14:43:00.000-07:00

About that.. ha! Well it's been a while since I last posted anything. At first I had a reason (fairly reasonable) and then I just didn't feel like updating my pathetic journey (haha). My first reason was that the cord that charges up my laptop got ..broken? I'm totally serious, I was able to see those orange little wires sticking out, and when I tried to put it together, it hissed at me and there were huuuge sparks flying everywhere!! (ok it wasn't that bad..just little sparks). So my computer did not have a charger, therefore, died. Amen. I got a brand new one (for 90 bucks!! I about to lost my eyes when I saw the price, they almost flew out of the sockets). That was a couple days ago.

The question is..why didn't I post? BECAUSE I FELT LIKE SUCH A FAILURE!! I still do. I focused so much on not eating fats that I completely ignored all other aspects of 811. I thought that if I got the fats portion covered I'd be fine. WRONG! I stopped excercising yet I've been eating more than ever. Yes, food still controls me and I think I need a major breakthrough for the food to stop controlling me. Or I just need to throw away certain foods (dsjabdnsdatesdsadjnbjk).

I am not so bloated anymore but I noticibly gained weight. (approx 5 pounds and it ain't water..water makes you look bloated) I really had to admit that because I would feel like such a liar if I didn't. For me eating raw (low fat) is not a miracle cure (for most peeps it is), I realized I just have to work a little harder for my miracle. Those are my goals for the next week:

-Focus on strenght training 3x a week (today was my number 1 day, I have never felt more intimidated in my life than today at the gym. I would go to the gym before but I would never do weights..I had no idea what the heck I was doing) --adjusment week, get used to the idea of going 3x a week, not necessarily work out like a pro, observe others, make plans of what to focus on (thighs,arms, etc..)

-Green smoothies 2x a day. I have to make that a requirement since I have't been getting any greens lately. Sad but true.

-Daily walks, as much as I have energy for.

-Pilates 3x a week for 30 minutes

-Eat SLOWLY

-Don't be so hard on myself.. I think this is the most difficult one of all.

I have so many emotions I want to let out but I just can't bring myself to. I'm so angry at myself and I really don't want to be. I feel so sad for myself. I feel so hopeless. Is this detox or just the consequences of not following 811 properly? I really don't know if I could accomplish anything at this point, but I'm willing to try again. And again and again if I have to. Maybe next, next time I won't fall?

Day 16

2008-06-16T20:45:00.001-07:00

Quick update! OMG I never have time to write here anymore! :( I'm so dissapointed in myself..I gotta find better time since I'm never home. Today I had 1300g watermelon for breakfast, 3 bananas, 4 cups of spinach smoothie, 20 dates(I know) and for dinner I had juice from 4 oranges and macadamia nuts. Not too bad :) I worked out a lot! I ran for 30 min, walked for 20, 50 lunges, 20 knee pushups, 60 min of powerwalking. Ok this is the last post I'm going to make so short and unorganized. Starting tomorrow I will find at least 15 minutes to write here because it does such a great job keeping me on track. I have not swayed from 811 but if I keep on neglecting it I will. Ok update on bloating: there is no bloating!! yay! those bananas were evil. I think my body just doesn't like them. OHH and the reason why I can't zip my pants (well one of the reasons) is because I do a lot of workouts on my bootie(oooh yea) and it got big!(ok a little bigger and perkier) You gotta understand I always had a FLAT bootie. So that's awesome. I came up with a lot of plans for the next couple months and I'll share tomorrow! I have to go now.

Day 14

2008-06-14T19:38:00.000-07:00

I'll make this post very, very short. I promise. haha Well today was a date and a watermelon day! I think I'm falling in love with watermelon since it's soo hydrating after my workout. Yup, I worked out today!! 25/25 min jog/walk, 30 min walk, 2 hr(yuup) walk with my bff. But I still had no greens and too many dates. hihi. I will really try to be good starting either tomorrow or Monday. I'll see how I feel. So far so good, two weeks!! :)

Ohh one thing. I am not bloated anymore! It was the bananas I know for sure now since I stopped eating them. So there! But I still gained weight, I can tell. It was the 6-7 bananas forced down for lunch that did it. And the dates now.. out of everyone who loses weigh being on 811 of course I had to be the oddball!! It's always me..grr ah who cares. At least I got some butt now :)

Anyway, I can't wait till I get back on the track (calorie wise) and start using my crono-meter. RIght now it is soo not an option :)

Day 13

2008-06-13T19:11:00.000-07:00

Alright, so this is my game plan for this month. I decided that the first two weeks will be my adjustment weeks and I will not beat myself up if anything goes wrong (unless macadamias steal my soul away). I knew dates were going to make me go crazy and binge, so I let it be. Yes, you heard me correctly. I am letting my body eat as many dates as I want. Until the 15th! (isn't that just crazy..) The 15th will be the second phase of the month, which means that I gotta act smarter if I got smarter (foodwise).

Today was wonderful up until 4. I had a nice watermelon lunch (couldn't eat breakfast..If I did, I wouldn't have anything to wear), about 5 dates( I applauded my self-control) and after work for dinner I had a 3 banana smoothie with a lot of baby greens. I was good. My stomach went down and I did not feel uncomfortable like I did for the past several days. I realize it IS the bananas that caused me such distress! I have to limit them :( I guess I'll buy millions of apples and make them my staple foods. Ohhh and I have to get a juicer since I bought like 60 oranges (please don't rot).

I also decided that I will not be posting my calorie intake since..I have no idea how many dates I eat! Or I'm just trying to suppress them from my memory.. Denial is a wonderful thing. I will give myself a couple more days for the adjustment and I'll jump back in! yay! Oh..and there's no way I'm going to be posting pictures if I feel that I GAINED weight hahah I will post pictures when I feel that there's actually a difference. I mean, who wants to look at the same pictures from a different day?? But one very good thing is that my skin looks rrrrreally nice! The other day my coworker commented how healthy I look (she always thought I was anorexic, especially after my numerous fasts). Ok, that means I rrreally gained weight. Only over 50 year-olds comment on how healthy someone looks when they're chubby! great..

I think I gotta buy new pants. I didn't expect to be so bloated all the time and having tight pants that might uncover my muffins(ew) makes me kinda depressed. Just a bit. So maybe If I get bigger pants, they will become loose soon and I'll believe that I lost a significant number of fat! Good plan. I was also thinking about doing a consultation with Dr. D just to make sure I'm doing everything right. I just can't afford it now. Maybe after years of saving up I'll manage ;)

Alright..I'm done for today. I did not workout either. If I eat badly, I don't exercise, period. That's just me. I feel way to uncomfortable for that. But when I eat well I will workout for hours!! I'm an all-or-nothing kinda girl. Sometimes it's fun being me, HA! Anyway, tomorrow is 2 weeks since I started this crazy thing! I will do my weekly observation thing but I will not be weighing myself. NO WAY! NO ONE WILL MAKE ME! haha

Day 12

2008-06-12T16:59:00.000-07:00

DISASTER!! omg I can hardly move.. yesterday and today were the worst 811 days of human history! Dates were all I was eating today too! And I had some overt fats.. great, hopefully I won't make a habit out of it. I know for sure I won't because I already made a plan of attack! I was planning on doing 30 days without any overts but I really, really wanted some macadamia nuts and dates make you think irrationally! blah..feeling so bloated and nasty (yup, just like the old times) but hey, it's all a process. As long as I stayed RAW and my ratio over the 12 days does not exceed 10% in fat so I'm good :)

Ok, so this is what happened. My gorgeous dates arrived yesterday evening and I had no idea where to put them, so I dragged them to my room. BIG MISTAKE. I was munching on them for like several hours (even right before bed!) udgshakjdsakj Waking up this morning was not pretty.. Not only did I feel nauseus (sp?), I also had no fruit in my house! Other then bananas, but I realized I can't eat bananas in the morning because I don't feel good if I do.

So I ate everything else.

MY DATES! They were my breakfast, lunch and dinner..I went to WF to get some greens (since I have been mistreating them) and I decided that since I already feel like ..crap.. I would get some nuts. Brilliant idea!! Way to go! So I ate like 15 or 20 of them. And then some more dates. I got really mad at myself because I was even too lazy to do my workout!! And when I get mad I act on it..so.. I took my box of dates and threw them out. Just kidding! hahah I put them in the second fridge I have in my garage. I decided that most of the time I will be too lazy to even go there so I'll only eat them when I'm desperate..yup..I'm so smart :)

Next plan. I went to costco and got....WATERMELON! I know, craziness. I cut it all up and half of the watermelon weighs about 3000 g. That's all I'm going to eat tomorrow and then TONZ of greens for dinner. To be honest, I haven't had a really good time throughout those 12 days because I realized that my body doesn't really like bananas.. I KNOW!! I was really sad but I have to admit that. After my banana smoothies I can't walk for at least 2 hours. I don't think that's right..so I'm going to limit myself to 3 maybe 4 banana smoothie and see how my body reacts.

Oh and I definitely CANNOT eat so many dates. All I keep reminding myself is that it's a learning process, and everyday I will find out something about myself that will make it easier on my journey. And I'm really contemplating on doing an enema..I just can't stand feeling so clogged. Honestly I think I'm GAINING weight. I screwed up my metabolism going on all those fasts and I'm just trying to be gentle with myself. My body is probably way confused so I'm giving it time to adjust. But still..I don't feel well. I also have to adjust my calorie intake. I should be consuming 1500 calories (based on my calculations) and I often go over that.

So there. :) Tomorrow is kind of the "start" of it again since I learned what my body likes and dislikes in what amounts. Now I'm curious how my body will respond to the watermelon.. anyway, I am not logging in my food and calorie intake today since I was soo horrible. I have a feeling like tomorrow will be amazing though! So good luck Sandy and don't beat yourself up! hahah

Day 11

2008-06-11T18:27:00.000-07:00

LALLllallalaLALLAlLALla

Need I say more?

FOOD INTAKE:
Breakfast:
-Honeydew melon (1500g)

Lunch:
-6 bananas, 2 cups of baby spinach, coco water smoothie

Dinner:
-5 oranges

After dinner snack, after receiving a special delivery-- GAZILLION dates :):)

Calories: 1985
92/05/04

I think I eat too much. hahahh I took Dr. D's words way too seriously ;) but that's temporary so I won't stray away from it. I don't think I am supposed to feel THIS full all the time. Tomorrow I will adjust my food take a little and see how it works for me. Good luck with that (honeydateshoneydates).

WORKOUT:
-45 min cardio (20 min jog, 25 min walk)
-40 lunges
-30 squats
-30 arm curls with resistance band
-60 min walk (no power)

Good workout day though! Tomorrow food shopping day!! yay!!

Day 10

2008-06-10T18:33:00.000-07:00

I AM BACK!!! To my old self that is :) Man, I am soo happy that I made it through day 9..it was horrible! I felt like ripping someone's head off (I bet they wanted to do the same to me hihi).

When I first went raw (practically overnight) for the whole straight month I did not touch anything that wasn't raw. I didn't even DARE to look! Or smell.. I felt amazing (went through an amazing detox and got an amazing detox acne) and I thought that was forever. Then came a family gathering and just to make my grannie feel better I ate some cooked(no meat though). By the way my grannies cooking is so not worth cheating..she's sucha bad cook..I thought grannies are the best cooks! What happened to mine?? Anyway, that night I was ga--sy hahaha and could not sleep all night. After that day it was easier for me to cave in when emotions were spiraling downward. And then the next day I felt even worse. It was a vicious cycle that somehow got out of control really fast.

That's what I kept thinking yesterday. I felt so bad emotionally that I knew if I ate something on the naughty list I would feel numb. But then I thought about day 10. I knew those emotional days usually last one day. They last more if you give in, but if you don't the next day, you feel so amazing and accomplished. I wanted to feel that, and guess what?? I DO! I was all jumpy and happy and excited all day that people at work swear I'm bipolar :)

I got my workouts in, I ate very well, lots of sunshine mmmm..the day couldn't go any better. To top it off, I went to Dick's and got myself a whole new workout wardrobe!! (oh Stacy and Clinton would be soo proud. Im sucha dorkster :) ) I was debating between getting those tight sporty black shorts and those tight sporty black capris. So I got the short ones since they also have those tight sporty black pants that will work for colder conditions. Ohh and I got a visor :) and new running shoes!! AND I'm completely broke. hahah but it's ok because I am getting paid this week :)

I decided that I'm going to start running a bit. The reason why it's because after my (power)walks I don't feel that amazing. It's not good enough for me since I have been power walking for about 5 years hhahha. My body is way too used to that, come on my grannie can do better than that. Oh speaking of grannies..while I was power walking one of those "power walking" grannies sped right past me! I almost got a heart attack! It's time to challenge my bootie!! Anyway I am very happy that it's "already" day 10 and now I am looking forward to triple digits!! gasp! Will I make it..? Only way to find out..oooh I ate some pears today and it reminds me of that night after my grannies partay. :)

FOOD INTAKE:
Breakfast:

-Honeydew melon (1300 g)

Lunch:

-6 bananas, 1 cup of kale, coco water smoothie

Dinner:

-4 pears

Calories: 1212

92/05/03

WORKOUT:

-30 min Pilates (with resistance band)

-30 min morning power walk

-60 min sunshiny power walk

:))))))

Day 9

2008-06-09T18:11:00.000-07:00

I'm going to make this post short today (apologies :) ) I was wondering when that day was going to hit..Didn't expect it to hit today since yesterday I felt so great. All day I felt so clogged (on the inside..you get the drift) I think it was the dates. The thing is I still forced myself to eat all day so I wouldn't get any naughty cravings. I hardly zipped up my pants.. :( felt like crying since it's been a week and it felt like day 1. Totally emotional detox kicked in. Felt really sad and a bit bitchy (pardon my French)..

I was so scared that I will try to suppress my emotions by eating nuts or something so I stuffed myself with everything else. Didn't even do any excercise since it was really uncomfortable for me to move with my "clogged up" system and huuuge belly. blah. But you know what? I am so not about to quit! I knew it was going to happen and I mentally prepared myself for it. So there, I'm just thinking about tomorrow and how I know that I will feel 10000% better. I just know it.

Oh and I'm starting my pilates tomorrow and that always used to make me feel amazing. I decided that before each meal I will do some sort of workout to be hungry for it because usually I'm never hungry..I just crave a lot and that's why I've been eating a lot. Alright lets take a look at my daily facts.

FOOD INTAKE:
Breakfast:
-6 bananas, 2 long stalks of celery, coco water (Felt like this was too much for me after those dates and I wasn't one bit hungry)

Lunch:
-2 grafpefruits
-1 lb of strawberries

Dinner:
- millions of apples
-salad consisting of cabbage, 1 tomato, 1 cucumber (I realized I really dislike cukes)
-more apples
-12 oz of raspberries
-more apples
-2 bananas

Calories: 1611
90/05/05

Bright side: I did not even think about caving in despite my emotional struggle. That's what the old Sandy would do.

No workout. Whatsoever.

TOMORROW DOUBLE DIGITS!!

Day 8

2008-06-08T18:21:00.001-07:00

DUM DUM DUUUUUUUM (hopefully this picture is not too indecent..sorry to offend with the manboobs)

Ok..so I wasn't going to weigh myself. I SWEAR! But as I was brushing my teeth something caught my eye. It was white and peaceful looking with a little friendly monitor(HA! how deceiving). I tried to shake the feeling that that friendly monitor was watching me..observing every move I make. I started getting nervous..my hand started to shake(those electric toothbrushes) and my face started burning(my mom forgot to turn on the a/c). I also started drooling (and this time grapefruit was NOT the cause, just the toothpaste) So I did the very next best thing -- I JUMPED on the intruder!! And gasped! OH THANK GOD IM NOT OVER 130!!!!!

Every night since I started 811 I knew that I couldn't be less then 130 because well lets simply put it - I just felt to0 fat! I mean my pants wouldn't zip! And even after it did I couldn't breathe! So I bet I was over 130 a week ago and went down to...127!! hahah no too far from it but it didn't hit that 3, so I'm fine. I honestly do not want to lose weight faster than 1-2 pounds a week. If I do I'll start eating more. INSANE. But true. I want this for a lifetime, not only for a couple months.

I'll be weighing myself every week! Just to make sure I'm going in the right direction. And I'm tweaking my excercise this week. Not a lot - just enough to see some difference soon. Some killer abs and some amazing biceps and lets not forget about them thighs. I'm going to include pilates 3x a week. Just that. In 2 or 3 weeks I'll include running. Patience, patience, patience. I do not recognize myself :) cool.

So I was really sad about one thing today. I am currently doing a 30 day 811 challenge at goneraw.com, and more and more participants are quitting. I have noticed the only ones that are quitting are the ones who eat less then 1500 calories. The ones who are doing an amazing job are getting either 2000 or close to it. People..EAT! hahahha sorry I know it's difficult but at least try to force yourself for a little while. For the first 3 days during 811 I thought I was gaining 10 pounds a day..I looked sooo pregnant I got worried. Now it's day 8 (omgomgomg) and my stomach is going down a bit. Slowly but surely. So don't worry! So at that point seeing people quit would normally make ME quit. But guess what? It made me even more determined..weird.

Ok now it's time to pour my guilt out about my food for today. Warning: I WAS SOO NAUGHTY. Ohhh I was so not afraid to eat but I am soo afraid to post my calorie number. I wasn't even planning on it but..what the heck. I knew I was going to be out all day so I went to WF and got myself like 30 Medjool dates for the whole day. And ate them all. Oh gosh..I'm sucha piggy. BUT I still kept my ratio :) haha I don't know what's going to happen when I get my Honey dates (the 11th!). Who wants free Honey dates? all 15 pounds of them? hahha ok that was definitely a joke.

FOOD INTAKE:
Breakfast:
-2 yummy mangoes
-2 grapefruits

Lunch:
-2 bananas
-15 Medjool dates

Dinner:
-15 Medjool Dates

naughty, naughty

Calories: 2566 (kinda hyperventilating)
96/03/01-- crazy

WORKOUT:--Im proud of that one :)
-40 min powerwalk and 5 min of unintentional sprint. Yup it started pouring.
-60 min of powerwalk in the most humid weather(and sunshine!!!!). It was more like a swim for me.

Yay, almost double digits!

Day 7

2008-06-07T19:39:00.001-07:00

Grapefruit..Sorry still in the phase hahha So I surivived 7 days on all fruit! Dear family and friends who thought I wouldn't survive ONE day on fruit -- IM ALIVE! STILL ALIVE!! haha ok on a serious note (well that was kinda serious too) I am very proud&pleased with myself. Ms. Lets-change-everything-drastically-without-patience turned out to have some patience in the core of her soul. I didn't even think I had a soul (JK!).

I chose the picture to appear on my blog because that's what I am (not the woman on the picture, my calves aren't as juicy, yo). I mean, that's what my philosophy on life used to be.Still kinda is, trying to change it. I would always want fast results, and if I didn't get what I want I would just stop what I'm doing. I would do drastic things with my appearance just so I would be noticed. Complimented. I also used to be boy crazy. I thought that if I looked good enough they would actually take the time to get to know me. I believe that personality will get anyone further then looks but it's the looks that initiate everything that follows.

Those past months taught me a great deal. Being raw has been the best, yet most challenging path I had to walk on. It showed me how great a person may really be - inside and out. I never knew how it is to have a glowing skin, shiny hair or strong nails. I never knew how it is to not be bloated all the time (ok aside from the past week hahaha). It took me six months to transition and realize that I will never stray away from raw ever again. This week made me realize that I really need to be patient with myself. Pace myself, give myself six months more to see the results instead of a week.

Every week I'll be posting whatever changed within me physically and mentally. I did not expect anything to change this week and I'm very happy about that. Just take the path and see where it takes you. That was my attitude this whole week and these are my results:

-Feeling happy (like 24/7, it's kind of annoying ;) )

-Mentally clear, prepared for life challenges

-Calmer (aside from occasional tantrums)

-More energy to be physically active (but not taking advantage of it)

-Nicer skin, no new break outs (just waiting for the detox to kick in)

-No cravings (much)

-Always satisfied after a meal (that never used to happen..I used to graze all day)

-Being regular (uhm)

-Most importantly -- LESS BLOATINESS!!! Yay!!

So far so good. I'm really hoping in six months to have a nice toned body, gorgeous, poreless(oh you know what I mean) skin, shiner hair. I'm giving it six months and see how it progresses! see, I'm patient!

Ok, time for some facts

FOOD INTAKE:

Breakfast:

-1/2 Honeydew melon

-1 lb of strawberries

Lunch:

-3 grapefuit (wanted more but gone)

-6 banana & 5 leaves of spinach & coco water smoothie

Dinner:

-6 Granny Smith apples (small)

-2 tomatoes, 1/2 bell pepper, 3 cups of baby romaine

Calories: 1259

89/06/04

WORKOUT:

-3x12 lunges with resistance band

-40 crunches

-30 side crunches

-3x10 resistance band arm curls

-30 min. power walk

GOOD DAY :)

Day 6

2008-06-06T18:14:00.000-07:00

Ok, so I have a confession to make. Ya know how I have a very addictive personality when it comes to food? I found my new addiction and it ain't pretty. I'm obsessively thinking and eating grapefruit. Of all fruit I am so very much surprised! I never really liked it before (although I did have it ocassionaly with sugar on top for taste ;) )

Why grapefruit? I have no idea.. Today at work my salivatory glands were working over time, since I couldn't concentrate on anything other then drooling over imagined sweet/sour goodness. I calculated that if I drive really fast at lunch, I'll have time to eat at least two or three of those. Stop signs never seemed more petty than on this day. Cops were laughable matters. NO JOKE.

So the moment I get home I RUN for the fruit basket only to discover that..THEY WERE GOOOONEE!!NOOOOOO!! So I just settled for a honeydew melon (not as easily as told but I won't get into emotional details. And tantrums. Oh I'm so glad no one was home). After my meal I went to work and called my mom leaving her an emergency voicemail: "Dear mom, If you happen to drive by a grocery store on your way from work, will you please do me a favor and stop by to grab a couple of hundreds of pounds of grapefruit? I would greatly appreciate your kindness. Forever, your loving daughter".

- Or something like that -

I was so pleased to see 8 of them sitting and waiting for meeee :) I asked my mom if she got the voicemail and she said no. WHAT?? She forgot her cell but she went to the store anyway and got my drugs(perfect name, no?). So I was a happy child :) Other than that, I'm happy to report that my work pants that I haven't worn in 2 days did not need assistance from the third party to zip up. A little overflow was still occurring (after breakfast, not before) but I feel like I lost a couple pounds of water.

I want dates. I found three somewhere buried and ate them with pleasure! If only I had more. No, thank goodness I didn't have more because today I felt like binging. I really did, gotta admit that. I didn't eat enough for breakfast and lunch. My mistake, not to be repeated :) PROMISE! Ok no promises.. Just "best tries" :D

I didn't work out much and I can feel it. BUT! I have an excuse - as always prepared - I worked from 6 30 till 4 30. There. I got an alibi hihi. Alright this is it for today becuase I have to leave in a few and I know I wouldn't feel like blogging later tonight.

FOOD INTAKE:

Breakfast:

-5 bananas

-1 small apple

Lunch:

-1/2 Honeydew melon

-coco water

Dinner:

-2 grapefruits

-20 red grapes

-1 Granny Smith apple

-1 banana

-3 Medjool dated

-2 grapefuits

--OK I ADMIT I WAS SOOO NAUGHTY FOR DINNER...SORRY too much variety and I definitely feel it.

Calories:1661

93/04/03

WORKOUT:

-20 minute family walk hahah my heartbeat didn't even beat any faster..It thought I was resting or something..

Day 5

2008-06-05T17:36:00.000-07:00

I made it so far! buahah I feel like such a loser even saying that :) Today was a good day! I wonder how long before something goes wrong..I even had my sun today - just as requested :)

I started out the morning with some food, unfortunately I didn't work(out) for it first. I was just excited about them mangoes, who can blame me?? After I ate, I went to Trader Joe's and got some goodies! rrrrraspberries yuum among other things. OMG and I couldn't wait any longer for my dates so I bought the "roachy" looking ones (as Sarah would put it). They had 12 in a package and another package had about 24. I wanted to get the 24 but I knew it wouldn't last til the morning and I really am trying to be good about binging. So I got the 12 one. And had a nice feast :)

It was still gloomy and dark outside and there was a storm watch so I stayed in, ate my dates and bananas, and watched Cloverfield. Very good movie by the way. When it ended I realized that even though I ate a lot, I'm not feeling too bloated so I decided that a walk sounded good. Plus the storm never showed up..? hmm I was hoping that I was going to have an excuse not to walk in that humidity..but nah no excuse.

I gabbed my ipod and off I went. As I was walking a song started playing "All I Want For Christmas" by Mariah Carey and I got totally excited!! Not because Chrismas is in SIX MONTHS (I hate snow) but the thought of being on 811 for six months sounded amazing! I mean, I would probably not pack on those 15 pounds that I traditionally do year after year. Right?

So I was walking for 20 minutes and suddenly strong wind started blowing. I got kinda scared and kept on repeating that it's not fair, I don't want to die, I just started my REAL life (5 days ago)! For some reason I was worried (I think it was because my mommy called me couple hours before and told me to shut all the windows because there's going to be a severe storm). I never usually worry about storms and all but for some reason I remembered that strange weather patterns occurred throughout this year and wouldn't be surprised if my little house was torn down by the storm. I don't know..weird thoughts day :) And I sprinted home! I shouldn't mention this but I was not wearing my sports bra..hahhaha I wasn't planning on running, ok!

Anyway..today I'm not feeling that amazing..little low on energy but feeling happy. Content. I went for another walk (when the sun came out!!) and was smiling like a fool throughout it. All hour. People driving past were probably thinking what a kook head. So? It doesn't matter :) Other than that..I'm still alive! Day numbers increasing, and got my tracking number for my Honey dates!! Oh that go me super excited. They are suppose to arrive on the 11 th. Perfect. I'll probably get some from Whole Foods to suppress my craving and all. Alright I think I'm done for today!

FOOD INTAKE:

Breakfast: 3 yummy mangoes (on the small side)

Lunch:

-12 dates

-4 XXXXLL bananas (squished between the dates, omg delish)

Snack: 3 Granny Smith apples (small ones)

Dinner: The most amazing salad consisting of 2 cups of baby romaine, 15 large cherry tomatoes, 1 red bell pepper. It tasted soooo good, I don't know why though..so simple..

Calories: 2016 ( I know, aren't ya proud?)

94/03/03

WORKOUT:

-30 min walk

-20 knee push ups

-5 min rebounding

-60 min smiling power walk

GREAT SUCCESS!

Day 4

2008-06-04T18:51:00.001-07:00

So this is what day 4 feels like ;) My, oh my..today was all about oranges. Breakfast, snack, dinner (ok not all I had a different lunch)..If I wake up with a little different hint of coloration on my skin, I will not "run" to the nearest raw foods forum and start a topic titled "HELLLPPP!!!", and ask my fellow raw foodies if they have ever experienced such thing as too many oranges. I will not. Maybe if I get really freaked out, but otherwise no.

Today was a really good day for me - workout wise. I was dreading looking out the window in the morning since it was so dark and gloomy. I took a deep breath and first convinced myself that if it's raining then at least I'll have a reason to use my gym membership that's been collecting dust since.. FEBRUARY..Yup Sandy is a smart girl (and she likes talking in third person when she disaproves of her actions).

I would think that the gym would have forgotten me by now but..nope, still getting charged each month, religiously. So, I looked out the window and..NO RAIN! Just a really nasty and depressing darkness all around-- nothing too serious. I took advantage of that and went for a walk. After that I had my breakfast (guess what it was?). And then I went on a bike ride!! yeaaaa and some other minor excercises that every magazine tells you will make a difference if you do it consistently. Yea, like those butt squeezing techniques when you're waiting for a bus and have nothing better to do than remebering to work it.

Oh, I work it. But I'm always so afraid that people around me will know. Maybe they can read my face, or notice that bead of perspiration (from the squeezing or possibly from being nervous about being noticed). I always think people know more then they really do. I hope at least ;)

Update on bloatiness: So, once again I woke up with a flatty! buuuut that didn't last long, nope, it never does..darn. It returned full swing, but as I'm writing this it's kind of going down again. Nothing really changed since. I feel a lot lighter mentally. I wasn't leaving things for the last minute which is HUGE since I'm the queen of procrastination. And I have very intense dreams..Last night I dreamt that my BFF died. And even worse-- I dreamt that I took off my make-up and my face was covered in red boils and cycts. I woke up and suddenly felt so appreciative of life, I even smiled to myself in the mirror in the morning to show some appreciation.

One thing I keep reminding myself is that this is forever. This is not another diet that I'll be counting down till it's over. The only reason I'm counting the days right now is to encourage me..there's no countdown. I keep telling myself that I don't want to get all those "raw benefits" right away because I want to focus on every single little change within me and if all that happens at once--I may overlook some amazing ones.

No cravings so far!!! :) waiting for those dates though..hopefullythe bag will last at least till Christmas hahahah (I'll probably get through 10 of those before Christmas hits) Anywayyyy lets report some facts for today.

FOOD INTAKE:

Breakfast: 6 medium Valencia oranges

Lunch: 1 LARGE banana while making 6 medium banana+1stalk of celery+coconut water smoothie

Dinner: 1 medium apple, 2 Valencia oranges, 1 banana

Calories: 1536

91/05/04

I had no greens today nor savory fruit..didn't feel like eating it..hmm

WORKOUT:

-30 minutes of walking

-50 lunges

-30 minutes of intense bicycling

no sunshine.. :(

Day 3

2008-06-03T16:40:00.000-07:00

Ooooh yeaah :)
I have good news and bad news. The bad news is that I broke my ipod, therefore I had an excuse not to workout (yea..there's plenty more reasons; like it was raining all day as well). The good news is that I went straight to Best Buy to get a new one! :) The bad news I still had no songs on the new one so I spent the last 4 hours importing music into my computer and still am doing this "as we speak". OOhh just finished importing my last CD!! Now it's time to transfer it all on my new cutsy Nano :)

Today was such a weird day for me..It felt like I ate too much (more variety) but wasn't as satisfied. hmm this just proves that huge, mono meals are miracle workers. I found myself craving nuts. HA. But I told myself that I could have any nuts I want but choose to eat something else instead. Did it work? Heck no..I'm not that good at convincing myself. So I stuffed myself with romaine leaves and tomatoes (who would have thought?) - THAT definitely did the trick! I was sooo stuffed!

This morning I woke up..with a flat stomach!! After a month of waking up to a pregnant stomach (each morning I wondered maybe I AM preggers..) It felt kinda nice :) But then I had a smoothie with the hugest bananas ever and my stomach found its way back. How loyal.

I took pictures today!! I didn't want them to be too official so I took them myself with a help of my mirror. My stomach is NAAA-SSSTYY :) I won't post any photos until I get some new ones in 27 days! I can't wait to see if anything changes! The first thing that's gonna go will probably be my boobs (breasts, sorry) mark my words!! hahha good, I don't like them anyways!

FOOD INTAKE:
Breakfast
-6 monstrous bananas, coconut water, 4 little stalks of celery (smoothie)
Lunch
-A pear, 2 mangoes, Granny Smith apple
Snack
-2 bananas, another pear, 20 strawberries
Dinner
-7 romaine leaves with 25 cherry tomatoes
91/05/04
Calories:1748 --perfect!!! If only I worked out.. :(

Workout:
HA!

P.S. I ordered 15 l.b. of honey dates!! They better be good :)

Day 2

2008-06-02T16:50:00.000-07:00

It's almost the end of day 2! I shall celebrate my accomplishment with a piece of cake (made in Jewel)! hahah yes I'm a joker..a piece won't do any good! You gotta go for at LEAST half of that baby! Ok now for real ;) I can't believe I'd be saying this but.. IM NOT EATING ENOUGH calories!!! Yes I want to lose weight (my chicken legs ain't looking like chicken legs anymore..my thighs got so juicy, and not in a good way. Hopefully KFC won't be chasing after me to get THAT fried..ewwww).

I can't believe I'm even talking about my legs..They were always so skinny despite my "chunkiness"..That means I must have gotten really chunky! I didn't weigh myself recently but last time I checked I was at 124 and gaining. Well in the middle of my binge crisis. So my bet is 129-131..I'm too petite for that weight. Even at my lowest 111 I did not look skinny but normal. How do I know that I'm not crazy? Because I asked my mom if I look too skinny and she said no. And my mom thinks everyone is too skinny! She's a little peanut herself!! And gets me sooo mad when she's upset about losing weight! hahah

So back to the lack of proper calorie intake. I guess it's ok because it's only my second day, and I'm still adjusting. Plus, I didnt do much of a workout because I worked from 7:30 till 5:30, and made a mistake by eating right after work. I should have gone out for a walk and then eaten. I wasnt even hungry!!! rawrrrr I'm just so used to eating at certain times without waiting to be hungry. I also feel sooooooooo bloated for the past 2 days..omg I hate to admit it but I couldn't zip up my work pants that I usually wear and were always a little too loose on me.. :(

The only thought that keeps me from breaking down is "this is the biggest your gonna get, the weight will only drop now" anytime now..? waiting! and then "PATIENCE!!!! HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO REMIND MYSELF??" I really don't want to lose weight too fast because each time I did lose it fast I gained it back faster. I remember couple of years back I was even chunkier (145) and that was January. I decided to do pilates and walk for an hour a day and eat healthy. Within 6 months I dropped down to 120 and looked skinnier than I looked at 111 without any excercise. Yup that's why I will not weigh myself, but will make the mirror my judge and measuring tape my new best friend!

Oh I decided to take a picture every 30 days and post it next to a before pic. I'll take a picture tomorrow and post it along with a new one in 30 days (if I'm brave enough!). In 60 days, I'll post a new picture and a picture from day 30 for comparison. That's my super plan! I love making plans! Aside from making plans, I'm also planning on following through with them! oh dear blog, keep me sane..AAAAnyway here's my food intake and "workout":

FOOD INTAKE
Breakfast:
- 1/4 of honeydew melon
-4 bananas (not a smoothie!!)
Lunch
-2 grapefruits
-2 huge Granny Smith apples
-1 small Pink Lady apple
Dinner:
-2 grapefruits
-1 banana
-2 tomatoes
-15 cherry tomatoes on 7 leaves of romaine lettuce
-2 small Pink Lady apples

91/o5/04
Calories: 1401 --a little better but still need to hit at least 1700

"Workout"
-10 bicep curls
-20 pushups (on my knees)
-I don't know what this one excercise is called..you're on all fours and lift one leg up
so did that 10x3 each leg
-no cardio :(

But I'm happy :) tomorrow I leave my work at 2 so I'll make up my for the lack of excercise!
and I'll take a nasty "before" pic! ok Im done for today!
P.S. my skin is looking GOOOOOOD :)

Day 1

2008-06-01T19:30:00.000-07:00

DAY 1!!!!!!!!!!!!! I did it !! haha ok ok, I'm not that excited..close to it buuut when I hit those TRIPLE digits..hahha I'm gonna make this post a lot shorter than I usually do. I usually let myself blab on and on but I was out all day (one reason why day 1 was so successful--no time to think about food!) and I'm really exhausted. I woke up all bloaty, kinda 6-7 months along preggers..I thought it was gonna go down a bit from last night but it looked like it grew..? ugh anyWHo It was a very amazing day for me, spend all day outside walking in the sun with my best friend and then we went to see Sex and the City.. AMAZING movie btw cried like a total loser at the end and pretended like I didn't but then I go to the bathroom and my makeup kinda smeared a bit..oh well..I'm a woman and have emotions!

FOOD INTAKE:
-Medium sized honeydew melon
-Smoothie with 6 bananas and spinach
-An apple and 15-20 large grape tomatoes
Calories: 1044 (I KNOW I KNOW!!! I'm sorry!! hahah)
91/4/5

WORKOUT
-2 1/2 Hour walk in the sun (an hour in the morning and 1 1/2 later in the day)
-40 lunges

I know I didn't eat enough but..BELIEVE me I'll make it up within couple days ;)

NUTS, NUTS, NUTS

2008-05-31T18:38:00.000-07:00

Nuts..This is like the most perfect title for today's post. I believe any title I come up with after this post will not even MEASURE and come close to this one. I swear! Basically what this means is that I went nuts..with nuts! I had a straight up love affair with one of the most irresistable of the kind-macadamias!! With their creamy and smooth "complexion",and exquisitely mild taste I was in "nut heaven". I'm sure such place exists somewhere. If it does..I'm ready to mapquest it anytime!

Enough about nuts (ha! It's never enough). That's why I also decided to end this affair in the mids of most passionate "interaction". They are way too much like drugs. Funnny thing is..I have never even tried drugs. Or cigarettes. Coffee (with its caffeine) doesn't work its magic on me either! I can resist any addictive and harmful substances but..I CAN'T RESIST NUTS!! This is just too much to bear.. I mean I wish there was such place as A.A. for nutaholics, 12 steps kinda thing... "Hello, my name is Sandy and I'm a NUTaholic".. More like a nutcase!! Well I wouldn't argue with that either.

I decided to create my own 12 steps to quit this "bloaty" and "constipating"(I know, I know) addiction. I mean it doesn't do any good to my body eating pounds and pounds of fattie little balls. Those balls just start rolling and I end up with a double chin.. I understand ciggarette users (maintain their weight,destressers) coffee addicts (energy boost) alcoholics (umm..feeling dizzy and happy and sad and nauseaus at the same time while making friends with the toilet.) drug addicts (umm no point there either..same as nut addicts). So yes, I came up with the most BRILLIANT idea for my addiction, its called "12 Steps to Break You Nut Addiction".

1. Go cold turkey.

After I came up with the first step, it made so much sense to me that I decided to leave it at that. So there ya go, no need to go to therapy and pay millions and gazillions of dollars. I'm giving the secret for free!! I think raw foods made me a really nice person, eh? I'll be trying out my step for the very millionth time tomorrow!! But this time will be different, because it will actually WORK. Ha. I have no doubt in my mind. Tomorrow will be the first day of something amazing.

I got really, really excited because while I was planning on starting 811 for quite some time, I wasn't alone!! Bunch of people at "goneraw" site will also be doing it for 30 days and reporting it everyday!! YAY!! I love support..maybe that was my problem before? I have never really gotten any support because most people would bash my "crazy-insane-stupid-"interesting" ideas..I stopped sharing them with anyone since everytime I even mention raw, fruit, veggie (in any order, at anytime) they look at me with their glazed eyes and shake their heads sadly. Probably thinking "that poor girl..life without pizza?? What a sad life". So I stopped. Not raw, just sharing. But I never stopped believing :)

I'm planning on going to Costco to look at some cases of organic fruit for my collection (and right after I finish this post I'll be checking for any development of fruitflies..eek..). I'll get bananas, apples, oranges, tomatoes, romaine, and honeydew melons and see where that gets me! I'm pumped!! (ask me again in a week how I feel..) Ok goooood luck girl--yes I'm talking to me!

I'M SCARED..

2008-05-30T12:34:00.000-07:00

..CRAPLESS. I don't know how else to put it. I know its human to be scared, all humans get scared (well with exception of that "stud" I dated a while back. ha.rrright.) but I believe I've got a real reason to be scared now. Let me elaborate on this..Well..*clearing my throat* I have never been a "long term" kinda gal. With ANYTHING. Heck, the longest relationship I've ever been in (romantically) was 3 months. The average throughout the years? a week. NO JOKE.

Well I wasn't really planning on unfolding my past relationships, but I would just like to give a visual. Ok another visual. Picture your first day of school every year. You promise yourself you'll never slack off, leave everything to the last minute (I plead the 5th), go to sleep at a decent hour, get involved with school activities..the list goes on and on. What happens the first week? You RUN home and the first thing you do is your homework (Television doesn't even look appealing to you). You go to sleep at 7-8 P.M. just to be sure. You collect brochures of all the clubs you want to join throughout the year. You feel sooo proud and accomplished and brag to everyone how easy it is to be a teacher's pet.

Now lets f.f. to a month into the school year. Do I even have to go there? It starts with"oh I'll do my hw a little later today". That turns into midnight stresses of figuring out why calculus was really invented, you oversleep in the morning, rush to school in a very bad, foul mood, don't pay attention in class because you're too tired. You won't join any clubs (like chess) because your homework drains you from your energy(and logical spirit)..that goes on until the next first day of the school year. At least that's exactly what happens with me. The reason I'm writing this is because I'm scared (crapless) it will happen to the 811 lifestyle. And this time there's no backup plan. That's what terrifies me! NO BACKUP PLAN. THIS IS IT. NOTHING WILL SOUND AS RIGHT AS THIS. And it's not another fad diet that when you get sick of it you move on to the next. No sir. This is something that actually requires patience (plead the 5th..? wait I think I might be using this phrase wrong). The funny thing about me (yea there's more) is that whenever I try any "diets", I expect my body to kick those jelly-like love handles right off. One whole day I'll eat perfectly, exercise numerously and at night..I'll be already measuring myself!!! AHHH!! And what?? I didn't lose that inch or two?? I give up! hahha yup that's me.

That's why I need this blog. I need to detach myself from my "wants" and focus on the present. I know you're supposed to think about your goals like 24/7 but that kind of just puts too much stress on me. I would like to focus on what feels right (within the guidelines of the book, Im not THAT crazy) and just enjoy how I feel. In a month I'll measure myself if I really want to haha. I really can't believe I started this blog..I never even considered it! Even when I was staring at the "create a blog" I started hyperventilating. A little. But I'm sure if nothing else worked I might as well give this a try. It's not like I dont try everything anyway. Oh and another goal is to read other people's blogs that are on 811..that really inspires me and shows me I'm not the only insane little person! hahaha jk!!

Today was my "practice" day. I ate well (bananananananananas)worked out, got tons of sunshine, breathed (seems like sucha no brainer) slept well, rested, and bought those really cool cups for my ginormous smoothies! yeah! Good "false" start.

The "Infamous" First Info Entry

2008-05-29T17:38:00.000-07:00

UN-believable. Me starting a blog..haha It's more of a necessity than anything else. And maybe a little pleasure of expressing myself without getting weird glances from others, but lets not get into that this soon into my post. I need a seperate day and definitely a deperate post with a warning label if I want to get into all that.

I have been a 100% raw foodist (definitely not 100% of the time) since December 2007. Fell of the speeding train, really appropriate term based on my spontaneity (couldn't spell that for at LEAST 2 minutes). I honestly don't know how I turned into such fruit..consuming girl. Ok, I honestly do haha "D-day" is still clear in my mind..gooosh..Well it definitely wasn't only fruit planned in my menu at first, if I knew it would come to this, PROGRESS to this..I don't think I would have started it in the first place.

Yuup. Me, the girl who lived solely on "healthy" foods- according to the public. Oh I had the Food Pyramid nicely covered day by day, no worries! Except the fruit and vegetable part because I hated it. Well I liked fruit (especially apples..still a little obsessed with them). BUUUT veggies??? are you insane??? dbhjbdhjbfsldjk blah to me any vegetable RUINED anything I was eating with it. Especially cooked. I would always tell my mom not to cook anything for too long because the texture would remind me of..you get the picture..but I never thought of eating my veggies RAW. EVER. except for occasional salads at restaurants filled with yummy oils and meat and cheese and bread.

So anyway, I was just a typical SAD eater but I prided myself for not drinking soda for like, totally 5 years, and not eating anything from fast food restaurants (fries, burgers) for about 4. That was extremely healthy to me and worried then (hahahah) about what some people would think if I don't eat at those junk places with them..silly silly..poor Sandy didn't know what was coming around the corner, did she? Anyway going back to that infamous day..So I was going through a very rough time.

It was a cloudy and stormy November (everything horrible happens to me in stupid November, every year without a fail..I tried pleading, threatening with that month but nothing works) For some reason I started eating mono meals (ha!) of ..drumroll..MILK and PEANUT BUTTER. Every single day for like a couple weeks. I didn't really care that I did that (except for the fact that I was gaining some poundage..some nasty rolls). Oh and some Halloween candy.

After 3 weeks of that my body exploded (kinda literally,no?) My face broke out like theres no tomorrow and I had no idea acne was related to diet back theeeen(in oh seven). I tried so many things, bookmarked acne.org, cried, bought so many books..I was losing my mind. Became depressed, stopped socializing (I'm a very outgoing person). The only thing I wanted to do was to lie in my bed and do research on my laptop(BFF).

I found an Ebook called acne no more, an amazing and most comprehensive ebook on acne out there. The author mentioned raw foods. That was it. That's all it took, among all the other things the author wanted the readers to do, that's all that "spoke" to me. I locked myself in my room for months to come and researched raw foods. I FELL IN LOVE with the idea of being natural (raw). I went to WFS and got $200 worth of raw "things" just for myself. For the whole month I was 100% raw, no looking back. I lost a lot of weight (I'm 5'4", small frame) from high 130's I dropped down to 110. I was enjoying life :) pores got smaller but my acne got worse.

Ok lets fast forward through (don't wanna put myself to sleep) tried different raw methods, thought I could eat anything and still lose weight (HAAA) so started eating nuts. Gained weight. Discovered fasting. Lost weight. Couldn't control my binging. Gained weight. Discovered 80-10-10 CLARITY. Tried it. Failed.(not enough fruit, calories altogether) sigh..Discovered Quantum Eating by Tonya Zavasta (absolutely love her)..I'm too much of a binger to even try that..felt hopeless so I started from the scratch. Just to stay raw. Ok so I tried that for 3 weeks now and I feel like it's time to move on to something I always believed is right. 811.

I have never been a patient or consistent person. I HATE waiting, I need results NOW. Well I learned I gotta stop being sucha kid. Most successful people are patient and consistent with everything. That's what made me decide to stick to this kind of lifestyle for at least 30 days and go from there. Don't expect anything just go with it and let my body accept it or reject it. I could be very determined(stubborn..hey I'm an Aries) but I like to be very spontanious (especially with foods) and even though I absolutely love to plan things, I love to stray away from the path to "smell the pretty flowers" even more.

So yes, June 1st it is. I have already been really good with food (except for macadamias and larabars) I like to binge on them. This has got to stop. I want to lose weight since my binging days left some rolls behind and incorporate everything that Dr. D wrote in the book. Oh and no overt fats for me..I can't control myself. I want to be happy. No, make that genuinely-like-a-child happy. And I never want to worry about acne constantly. So that's it, I had to pour all those emotions on a piec..wait on the computer, for random people to laugh at my struggles..Joking! laughing WITH me at my struggles.

I don't think I made my post too short? Because I can keeeep on going and going..lalalala ohh Almost forgot..one of my biggest inspirations for even documenting my journey is Sarah from goingbananasblog. OMG for the past 2 days straight I've been reading her posts(every single one of them, yes i feel like such a stalker) and bursting into laughter..that girl is spot on the most hilarious thing that ever happened to blogger dot com hhaha ok I'm definitely done for today. So Sarah if you ever honor me with your presence(if you ever read my blog. ha) Thank you for inspiring not only me but probably so many more rawbies who need guidence. :)

Oh wait one more thing hahah today is the day I moved to America 9 years ago from Poland! Yay!